Hmm..

Alright, Well, It's been awhile. Busy, Busy.. as they say. Really, I just haven't gotten a chance to get to a computer yet.

So what's new? Welp, Not much really. I've been at home with the kids everysingleday for the last, o, I dunno. Lifetime. So it feels anyway. Don't get me wrong, I love being at home with them, but I think I'd like to get out there and work again. It's hard to work around K's schedule and we only have one car at the time, although we could get another one, if he would just go out and start looking..

Anywho, not much else going on. Jaxon just had his 3rd birthday. And I just had my 26th birthday. Dang. It all seems to be just flying by.

Yesterday, ofcourse was Mother's Day. It was a nice day, but I found myself thinking about my mom. I don't think about her as much as I used to, and I felt like I was having a hard time remembering things about her. I should have went to her grave, but I never did. Its only her grave, her spirit isn't there.

Anyhow, enuff of that. I'm going to close for now. I still need to take some pics, which I will get around too someday, so get off my back!! ")

till then: peaceout

BLOW

Sorry again for posting so far and few in between. Life has been a crap shit lately.

Guess who's back in Jail? Never guess? Can you? Okay, it's Kyle,. BUT first! I don't think that everyone knew about the first time, huh? Part of that whole shitty year I went through. So, let me tell you.

Around last July, I was running around with this clan, and in this clan was a certain guy that I fell for and with that decided that I deserved better than what Kyle had to give me. One particular day, the kids and I were getting ready to leave the house and go 'mudd'n' (as its called) Well, long story short, Kyle totally flipped out (he started long before to start showing signs that the elevator didn't go to the top floor, if you know what I mean..)

Anywho..he wouldn't let me leave, and when I say he wouldn't let me leave, I mean he physically wouldn't let me go. He even locked me in our room at one point. When I tried to call for help he cut the phone cord. It was straight out of a lifetime movie, he had lost his mind. My niegbor could hear me screaming next door, so, she comes over with a baseball bat, and then calls the cops. It was crazy. So, he goes to jail, does 30 days for Domestic Violence and gets probation.

Well, last week, he goes and gets trashed and gets picked up for probabtion violation, and has to do 20 days...Oh, Joy!! He at least got work release so he go to work, and it really could have been worse, he could have gotten 150 days, and he would have prolly, if I had disclosed more of the events that transpired that evening.

So, thats whats new for me. I still need to get some pics on here. And I will. Some day.

Alright, gotta run..

Peaceout

I am so sorry it has taken me so long to write a post. I just haven't been near a computer for awhile. I should hope to be getting one soon, so for now this will serve until my next trip out to the inlaws place.

So, all is going well. I'm loving finally being in our own place again. We've had a little bit of trouble with the people that live underneath us. This lady was up at our door the second day we were their saying we were to loud. The kids meaning. They are still ajusting to not being able to run and jump around. Since then she has still done nothing but complain, the kids have settled down, but she must think she should never hear a sound. Other than that, its wonderful.

I'm gonna take some pics, and hopefully be back out here later to post them.

Hmm, lets see? Other than that much, I really don't have much more to report on. Sad yes, I know. My life is so full. (nope, not really)

So, for now I will close. But I promise to get back to you soon ")

peaceout

Quickly Now

M'kay, I'm moving in today!! Ole'Wonderful!! Anyhoot, we'll be in a rush, due to the possible 'snow storm' coming (Didn't I say I would move in 50 feet of snow?) Hmm, just may happen. So, while I'm doing that today, Im going to take some photo's for everyone to see our new home/apartment. Can't wait!!

Byenow-Peaceout

Good News...

Finally. Something good. We got the keys to our place yesterday. I'm sooooo Excited. (Jen, it's right accross the hall from Jacks old one)

K, had to go to Indianapolis for a few days for work, so we should be able to move in this weekend. Sucks its so damn cold out thou. I'll move in 50 feet of fuckin snow, if I had to (please don't let us get a blizzard).

Oh, if you all knew the crap that has gone on in my life latley, you would understand how great its going to be to have my own place again. *Sigh*

I had the house to myself today, and it was wonderful. K's mom finally had school today, and then with him gone, it was blissful. Guess what I did? Go ahead...
M'kay, nothin really, cleaned and watched t.v.

I just heard that ANNA NICHOLE SMITH died..(gasp) I can't believe it. Welp, kinda. How much you wanna bet that it was an overdose..betcha.. Poor thing, she's been through hell. I really liked her.

Anyhoot, I'm sorry that this post has been uneventful, but. well.

I'm leaving now.
Peaceout

Rebuilding your life,

Can be a real bitch. Thats what I am currently doing. From my last blog in May, is when it all began. Going downhill, ofcourse, I had to hit the bottom of the earth before I relized a damn thing. At first, I thought I had it all under control, but, soon, (not soon enough) I began to see that I (of all the nerve) was not so grounded.

So as it stands, Kyle and I are living with his parents, we are looking for a place right now, or even hopefully have found one. We haven't heard if we got it yet or not. It would be of course, my shit luck (yes, part of which I have created) for it to not work out, then again, I am trying to remain positive. Yep...positive.

And..to add to the mix, I found out a few months back that I have cervical cancer, and still am not sure how far advanced it is. I have an appointment the 15th, (my daughters birthday) to have them further pick at me..I've already had a biopsy, a colosocpy, a euritterage (spelling could be off)..But, they have yet to actually "remove" a damn thing..Although, this type of cancer is more and more common, it still does not take away from the fact that it is still cancer, and with the history of cancer in my family (my mother for starters..nope not living) it's still a bit scary on occassion. I'm dealing..

The lights of my life, the kids..(also the cause of a migrane that won't quit) are doing wonderful. Growing so fast.. My daughter, turning 4, is the smartest child ever..really she is, you may think your child is the smartest..but really, c'mon..

And on that note, Im going to bed.. So I can start the same day over again. By the way, its colder than crap outside, and I told ya, the Colts would win..

PEACEOUT

Starting Over

Well, it sure has been awhile since I have been around. So much has happend. As you can tell, I've been messing around with the layout, I have more fun doing that than anything else..

I plan to do a full update tonight, I won't be watching the SuperBowl, Colts are going to win, good enough for me. I'll be alone this evening anyhow..yes, poor me.

First, I'm going to stop over to see ramblings (my dear sister) to let her know she can start comeing to see me, hopefully she'll spread the word for me that Im back in action...

Snow....